Dear Steve,
I can hardly believe 30 years have passed since you left us so suddenly & unexpectedly! THIRTY?!
At the time I thought I couldn't go on breathing for this long.
The shock wore off and the grief has softened, although I still miss you. On days like today the tears still fall.
As we recently learned, if we lived in Switzerland your grave would've already been recycled! Even though I don't get to visit it often, it's still a comfort to know its there.
I can't imagine you as 48. #forever18
You were the one who made me a big sister. So many memories growing up together, mission trip to Haiti, my wedding day... and your last day on earth.
I'm sad about the sister-in-law and the nieces & nephews I never got. I guess you figured out pretty quick that Jay would fill the void for us.
But I'm happy that you are safe, experiencing all the wonders of heaven. Free from all the pain and stress of this world. Amazing grace.
As I'm sure you know, we had a baby boy exactly 2 years after you left us that we named after you. When he was 18, I lived in fear of losing him, too. Now here we are, 10 years later -he's 28 today- and he's a dad. Of my amazing grandchildren. While you live where time is immaterial, it has a way of marching steadily on here.
I bet you know, too, how close you came to having your only brother-in-law joining you a couple years back. I wonder if you whispered in Jesus ear "she needs him yet" and watched with a nod as the angel place his fingers on Richard's neck while the barrel lid sliced through.
I feel conflicted. I want to be here to enjoy my grandchildren, but I desire to depart and be with God which is far superior. Philippians 1:23
Save me a spot at the table, I'm coming. See ya at the gate! (You know when to meet me there.)
Love, Cheryl
Everybody's dressed in black
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The funeral was a rainy day. I remember your Uncle Merle saying that " God is weeping with us today. He does what is best, but He weros with us - knowing how painful it is."
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