New Year Reflections

When we think about 2009, it invokes mixed feelings for R & I. It's been a difficult year as parents. More questions than answers, frustrations, weariness, falling short, fears... We never wanted disorders to be part of our parenting package. But on the other hand, we are very blessed financially. R. had plenty of work all year long, and God has blessed us with a good heritage of money management skills. We also realized this year that not only do R & I both have the gift of Giving, but both of our dads have it, too. It's the only way of life we know. Wow! We finally figured out why some people just don't get what seems so easy to us!

When the New Year arrived, R & I were sleeping. The stay-up-half-the-night baton is passed on to the next generation; JR was out with the youth until 4:30 AM. I'm now the mom who can't sleep soundly until everyone is safely home; I was awake from 1-4:30 listening for tires crunching on the drive.

I've been thinking about plans & expectations. I don't know the origin of the quote "If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans" but I know the author of "For My plans are not your plans". This morning I read the story of a couple traveling in treacherous winter weather. With relief, they exited the freeway near their home. The man said "Thanks, Lord. I think I can take it from here." Just then their car spun 180*. Can't you just picture God with raised eyebrows and a smile- "Are you sure about that?"
Why do we try to go it alone? Why take the responsibility/stress on my own shoulders? It's not like God isn't handling the situation fine without my help. Makes you feel kinda foolish when you look at it that way, doesn't it?

Last year a father & his young son agreed to spend 15 min. every day searching for treasure. Their efforts yielded over $1000. and, I'm sure, priceless bonding. How much treasure can I find this year by spending 15 min. every day searching God's Word? God promises if we search for wisdom like hidden treasure that we will find understanding. That brings me full circle to my first paragraph. Understanding is what we're longing for as parents. This isn't a formal resolution, but I do want to search for treasure daily. I don't know what is around the bend, but I know the One who is walking with me, and for that I am profoundly grateful.